Things...

This has been an interesting week for me.  Last weekend, I was in Aberdeen for a music teachers conference.  We got Saturday night around 6 and I came home and took a nap.  I went out with some friends for an early Halloween and came home and went to bed.  On Wednesday, we went back to Aberdeen for a vocal competition.  We got back Thursday night around 11:30 and I went to bed.  This weekend has been full of catching up on sleep and homework.


While we were in Aberdeen for the conference, I met some new friends, made a lot of teacher connections and learned tons of stuff I can use in my future classroom.  I bought a few new voice books and took pages and pages of notes on each session I attended.


I got sick with another sinus infection on Monday.  By Wednesday when we left for Aberdeen again, it was well and truly set in.  I could still sing though, so that was a godsend.  


We got back to Aberdeen on Wednesday night and met up with my dear friend, Ashton, who is now in grad school.  We had a wonderful time catching up, though it was far too short.  I miss her so much and I felt so happy to have a friend in Aberdeen with me.  I found out that she has really been talking me up to her teachers in grad school and she highly recommended that I go to grad school, because I was doing so well with my singing.  I'm still thinking about grad school.  I sometimes think I really want to go to grad school, because I really feel like I'm in a place where I can grow both vocally and mentally.  Other times, I think I'm not ready for grad school, because I know it will be hard and I don't feel like my undergrad program has prepared me well enough.


In other areas, I am still sick with a sinus infection.  I've had a sinus infection off and on since May.  I am so sick of getting them.  They last for weeks and they drain every ounce of energy and coherence I have.  The awful thing is, I've been on just about every kind of medicine out there fore sinus infections, and because I have chronic sinusitis, none of them really work.  They make me feel better, but they don't ever make the sinus infection go away completely.  


After the music conference in Aberdeen, I vowed to myself that I would stop being so negative all the time.  So far, it has been really difficult.  It is in my nature to be negative.  It's how I've always been.  I suppose I should go to a doctor and get on some medicine, but I know most of them have really awful side effects.  I also know, from talking with people that have been on depression meds, that it takes quite a bit of trial and error before they find the right prescription. I don't have the time right now to be swamped by drugs.  I have too much homework and I am too close to graduation.  I am trying to make myself be better about my attitude and I am trying to be more positive about everything.