If you've been following my recent posts on facebook, you'll have noticed how frustrated I've been in the last few weeks. People just keep driving me NUTS and this crappy weather is not helping.
I don't mean to say that there haven't been wonderful times in the last few weeks, because there definitely have been. Every second I am able to spend with Craig is a wonderful blessing; my sister came for my recital and it was absolutely wonderful to spend time with her; my senior recital went off without a hitch and it was absolutely perfect in my eyes - so many people from my home church in Gillette came to hear me and my family was there. So there really have been a lot of blessings in my life.
But every day, there is something (or someone) who drives me flippin' nuts! If it's not school and school related work (homework, classwork, etc.) then it is someone I encounter during my day at school. Lately, it's been fellow music students. Craig's ex is one, for example. She is dating one of my exes and she has turned into a big bible thumper, like he is. Every day at lunch, she talks about something from the bible, or something she heard at church. Don't get me wrong, it's great to believe in the bible and God (and I do believe in that), but I don't want to hear about it every 30 seconds! And every post on her facebook is about her feminist ideals - which I do not agree with. I'm a woman and I rejoice in that fact, but I don't agree with feminism and pushing it on others.
Another person is a fellow music major - well, two fellow music majors - who are student teaching right now. They whine and complain whenever anything goes wrong and whenever I need to talk to my professors about something, they are in bemoaning their classrooms and what went wrong on that particular day. It makes it really tough to talk about assignments or get help on music when they're taking up my professors' time. And today, as we were tearing down after the orchestra concert and setting up for the jazz festival tomorrow, they stood and watched while 3 of us did all the work. They should have been helping, and they knew it, but instead they stood and watched. The orchestra director thanked me afterward for my help and said, "But why were you helping? It was supposed to be jazz band kids helping." I said, "I don't know, talk to them." One girl said, "I'm not in jazz band anymore, I don't have to help." The other girl, whose comment really pissed me off said, "Yeah. She was at the solo and ensemble festival all day yesterday, as was I, so we don't have to help." My question is, what does solo and ensemble festival have to do with jazz festival? The two are completely unrelated, and the fact that you were at solo and ensemble festival as part of your student teaching has absolutely jack squat to do with helping set up for jazz festival.
Ooooooh! Some people irritate me so bad! How do I learn to let things like these slide when they bother me so much! I have dedicated everything I have to that music department, and I hardly get recognized for the stuff I do, but those two get all the recognition and do so very little and they get handed all the kinds of stuff that will give them experience (leading warm-ups, directing rehearsals when the directors are gone, etc) but I never get any of those opportunities.
Oh well, such is life. I just need to vent about it sometimes when it gets too much to handle.
